|Disgraced fashion designer John Galliano HERE|
John Galliano said the kind of vile things that had a certain ¨ring¨ to me--they held a familiar haunting and shudder-causing ¨feeling¨ in me even though the worst of those ¨utterances¨ stopped spilling out of my own mouth over three decades ago.
I knew hateful words. Words that often poured out of the mouths of people like him and me.
This time it is John Galliano who is ¨actively¨ ill.
I think the out-of-control and unstoppable spewing of hate comes from the down under-everything-else place. A inside place that is far deeper than any shred of ¨pretend¨ or artificial ¨dignity¨ on the surface that may be seen/heard attempting to hide the most fearfilled ¨falling off place.¨ The out of control place, the one way trip down to the deepest darkest self-loathing level of personal horror where/when one realizes they can not keep trying to pretend ¨things¨ are different than they really are...a dreaded glimpse of personal reality/loathing and profound pain, the place where one must face/accept the ¨things¨ they can not change and change the things they can change...they can change if he and me are both capable of being honest with ourselves...one day at a time, individually yet together in spirit.
Pray for the addicted, the abusers and for those who are victims of abuse.
Lord have mercy