|WHEW! Who knew?|
|My beloved Mother and Father were Republicans. Who could have anticipated that I would come home from Second Grade one day with a ¨All the way with Adalei¨ button pinned to my shirt?|
|I ran as fast as I could and faster than most would and won the jeweled ¨N¨ at graduation|
I always had it. My secret. My later to be known as ¨Gay¨ secret. My innermost extra friendly attraction to people of my same sex secret was always perking along somewhere inside my great passion for life and friendships. It sometimes expressed itself, but mostly didn´t as I was a tad ¨shy¨ (when it came to sexual matters). I especially liked being a boy into man. I liked girls and women too but it wasn´t with the same deep/bold feelings of brotherhood, of likeness, of glowing admiration and most physical and very personal identification I knew amongst the gender that was my own-- it wasn´t about sex as a child, it was about the magnetic, and now I think genetic, desire to be amongst/closer to people like me....a powerful magnetic attraction that has lasted my whole life through and never lost power...a natural high voltage continously and automatically recharged by living honestly.
My imagined boogeyman emerged from the shadows of other peoples thinking. I had believed for a while a lot of shame maiming anti-LGBTI slander...but, one day/night my own terrified being finally accepted the authentic person that God created in the person of me! I´d been saved from the self-destructive in me. One more surviving/living example of a hobgoblin turned personal innerghost that was slain and buried in the graveyard of other peoples demands, expectations, ignorance and out right lies. R.I.P. self-deceiving! Other peoples expectations of what ought be isn´t truthful or right or normal for people like me. I now dance on the grave of injustice, abuse and flat out bigotry.
|¨Bless us all, each and every one¨|
Peace be with you