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What?
You mean ¨my case¨ ¨my situation¨ ¨my life experience¨ isn´t more important, more victimized, more ¨worthy¨ of kind consideration, justice, change and a well earned option to enjoy
REAL Righteousness? Damn, I´ve worked sooo hard! Do you know who I am?
Surely, I´m much more entitled to all-around pride, peace, well being and personal
integrity than you! After all I´ve been through? How dare YOU! I´m nice too!
Do you mean to tell me (or even just think) that
radical inclusivity would cover all human beings (as in human rights)? All of God´s children under the sun and moon make the cut to stop being abused, tortured, discriminated against, persecuted, enslaved and humiliated? Where do I sign? Has our time come?
When?
Please spare me the ¨patience is a virtue¨ suggestion! I want/deserve guarantees! Immediately!
Where?
Do you (you know who you are) intend to come here and tell me that I´m to shut the hell up, take my turn, do my best to be the best that God has created/gifted me to be? Humbly ¨be¨ equal? Learn how to be equal instead of trying so hard to be better than some of you?
Why?
Are you saying that it´s ok when I don´t succeed, or when I´m overwhelmed or simply powerless or plain screwed up, or miss Gods ¨point¨ entirely, to keep staying and praying as hard as I can to find my way out from under the everday stress and give my demands a rest?
I don´t have to keep steamrolling my way through this? Must I give the dilletante in me a rest? No huffing or puffing or trying to knock the evildoers down? Surrender myself to ¨Father/Mother knows best?¨ God only knows?
Do you mean to tell me the authentic in me is not more deserving than the authentic YOU? Who are you to say such a thing to me?
Heck, I´m a persecuted Homosexual and you´re ¨Straight¨ or ¨Cuter¨ or ¨Smarter¨ or more ¨Savvy¨ or maybe even a happy Lesbian and/or a well-adjusted Transgender or even, just possibly, a double featured ¨wealthier¨ Bi sexualist!
Who?
I´m exhausted from thinking that you ought think I am different than I really am.
I´ll give up. I´m not as strong or as smart or as talented or heroic as I thought I was. I´ll just be slightly pissed off and go back to being the regular, everyday, me (and watch my back).
Rightsized at last-- who would have guessed that I´m much like the rest of YOU? Not me (are we/you certain about that?).
Amazing when you get down to it--
radical inclusivity is pretty darn radical and it has very little to do with me thinking that I´m more deserving because of what I´ve been through (let the high-pitched self-pity-whining begin) than the YOU sitting next to me. I´d appreciate it if you´d stop squirming...I will if you will and please don´t leave teeth marks on my neck anymore and please try to leave all the beloved alone...stop being mean, God smites the mean (I know, I´ve been smacked a couple of times before).
Lord hear my prayer